Tuesday, September 1, 2009


Here's a poem that I found. It's only been a month and not a year for me, but this is how i feel.

Another anniversary of the day that I lost you
It's really very simple, that day I lost me too
Although I try to find the me that I used to be
I will never find that person, for she is lost to me

I know it sounds confusing to those that have no clue
That when you lose a child, you also then lose you
It sounds like one big riddle that I should work on through
But there is not an answer, not one thing I can do

Grief is what has come to me and changed me from within
It has burrowed deep inside of me, like it's a second skin
No one should live on this way but there was little choice
When grief was handed out to me, I didn't have a voice

I often wonder who I am since losing my sweet child
In the world in which I live in, I've been forced into denial
With every anniversary that marks another year
Are thoughts that come from others, that my pain should disappear

I am a mother who has lost a child on a tragic day
And with that loss it took my dreams, and visions far away
I would have chose to leave instead, for life is not so good
For all that ever mattered, was my son and motherhood.


  1. My sweet friends....this is truly beautiful. I'm so sorry you're hurting so! I wish I could help & take the pain away. Stay strong & don't be afraid to cry.
    We love you xx

  2. Hi

    That poem says it all, so very true. I too lost my son to CDH three years ago, I understand those words so much too. I am thinking of you lots
    much love Debbie

  3. hi there, thanks for the reply on my blog, would it be ok for me to email you? i can't find an email address x
    so sorry for the loss of your beautiful brave little Jackson x
    that's a beautiful poem x
    Hayley xx

  4. I identify with the poem. I lost Addison 6 months ago. Everyone thinks that it gets easier with time, but in actuality, it hurts the same no matter how long has passed. It is just another missed milestone in our angels' lives. Sending you much love and peace.