Tuesday, July 19, 2011


Well Ive been asked to update my blog. So here I am. We are doing great. Tys loving the summer and getting to go alot more being that hes older now. He Just got back from the beach, and he told us it was the trip of a lifetime..lol! Hes funny...Hes getting closer to 6 and I cant believe it, I want him to stay little :( He starts kindergaen August 23.

Life is great but right now I will say that I'm struggling pretty badly with this month. July 29Th will be Jackson's 2ND birthday. How did that happen?! I'm happy I have him even if not in my arms, but my heart is just hurting. I hate getting on here and crying about things, but i don't talk about it to friends so this helps a little i suppose. We always hurt, don't get me wrong...if you have ever lost a child, husband, wife, someone really close you,a person you had to have, you understand what i say when i say, just the smell, feeling, heat weather, holidays, anything that goes along with the month of July and August brings me back to Jackson times. So i believe for the rest of my life these months will be hard. No matter how hard I try to stay positive and to have short thoughts about Jackson during these months, I cant. It doesn't help. I'm not a good wife right now, this i know for sure. I mean I'm not out doing anything...I just cant cook, don't feel like cleaning and want to be alone at night. I have lumps I'm my throat all day everyday when talking to people...Reason y....because I'm keeping myself from crying..i don't even know what for sometimes. My mind just knows and remembers this time of year. I have come to find out that crying doesn't help alot of things so i don't let myself do it often, but tonight my lump broke and well here i am blogging. Its not easy making it look easy right now, if you know what i mean.

I thank God for all of my friends I have made and I thank you all for always praying and supporting us. Here is our 4th Of July picture.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Do you know about our new blog? :)

Just wanted to remind everybody that I have a new blog, If your not following it, I hope you start now. I loved reading all your sweet comments, and knowing we had so many people praying for us, and that cared. Love to you all

Candice Brooke Beal

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Happy birthday baby Jackson 7/29/10

Hello blog world! Haven't been on here in forever to blog, or even read other friends blogs. I hope and pray that all of you are doing great. Well tomorrow is jacksons first birthday, July 29th. Wow how I've been depressed this week. It feels like it really means he's gone. I won't ever see him, it's over. It's been a year so why am I feeling this now? It's like I'm really feeling the lose now more then ever. This week has not been good. Please pray for us tomorrow as we celebrate Jackson's 1st birthday without him. I miss my baby boy so very much, and wish god had had other plans for our family, like plans for us to still have our sweet Jackson! One of the best days of my life was the day I gave birth to Jackson Mac. The worst day of my life by far was the day he died in my arms. I believe the next worst day of my life will be tomorrow, on his first birthday, then his funeral would be next on this list. All horrible things to go thru. So happy happy happy birthday baby boy from your momma....mommy wishes she could hold you on this very special day. Hope God gives you a rockin party! Ps I'm blogging on my phone if this post looks funny......

Monday, March 22, 2010

New blog

Here's my new blog for all of you to follow!


Thursday, December 17, 2009

Christmas pics

Here are some pictures of Ty this Christmas season....enjoy

Monday, December 7, 2009

CDH and my New Blog

Hello everybody,

I've decided to start a new blog. My new blog will be about our life today. Jackson of course will be talked about, because he is apart of our family, but I want this blog to be about CDH. I have a few things that I'm doing for the awareness of CDH, and alot of stuff i need to inform everybody of, and that's what this blog will be here for. I can't wait to start my new blog, and to fill you all in on our day to day life. I will post the name of my new blog as soon as i make it. Dnt forget about this one though, because I'm doing alot for the CDH world, with alot of help of course......Love you all!

Candice Brooke

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Great Pics! Should I start a new blog?

Here's a few pics from this past month.....and i'm thinking about starting a new blog about our family. Think thats a good idea? Or should I just post on here??? I'm really not sure, but i love letting my feelings out, and talking about my sweet family.