Christmas pics

Here are some pictures of Ty this Christmas season....enjoy

CDH and my New Blog

Hello everybody,

I've decided to start a new blog. My new blog will be about our life today. Jackson of course will be talked about, because he is apart of our family, but I want this blog to be about CDH. I have a few things that I'm doing for the awareness of CDH, and alot of stuff i need to inform everybody of, and that's what this blog will be here for. I can't wait to start my new blog, and to fill you all in on our day to day life. I will post the name of my new blog as soon as i make it. Dnt forget about this one though, because I'm doing alot for the CDH world, with alot of help of course......Love you all!


Candice Brooke

Great Pics! Should I start a new blog?

Here's a few pics from this past month.....and i'm thinking about starting a new blog about our family. Think thats a good idea? Or should I just post on here??? I'm really not sure, but i love letting my feelings out, and talking about my sweet family.

Life today

I just thought i would finally post my slide show of Jackson. I hope everybody is doing great. I miss waiting for Jackson to get here, those were happy times, I thought everything would be fine. I loved doing my little blog. I know some of yall would love to know what we're doing now, as well as how we're doing. Well It's alot harder then i thought it would be to tell the truth. I mean the first week after Jackson was gone it was so terribly hard, but i was still in shock and didn't really realize that we would never see Jackson again. Now that it's sunk in and I'm in reality it's very difficult. I'm ok i suppose but still in need of lots of prayers. Today has been one of those really hard days and I can't seem to make myself see that it's going to be ok. I know this day will end and tomorrow will probably be better, but just because i have to make it better. Today was one of those days were i didn't want to hide my pain, or make it better, or even feel good. Sometimes you just have to have those days. I am not the same person that i was before and never will be, I hope to become a better person because of this. Rob is doing pretty good. He's still at the same job and we're still happy has ever. I tell him all the time that if i didn't have the happiness between us that i wouldn't have been able to make it through the loss of Jackson. I have truly found my soul mate. Thank you all for being a part of our life's. p.s. Ty is doing wonderful too!

Turn your sound on........Baby Jackson we love you

Make a Smilebox slideshow

Good Bye

Hey!

Well sorry I haven't put up the pics yet, I can't find the cord to my camera. I'll have them up soon. I just wanted to thank everyone for their sweet comments, they really do help me. I read the most amazing words, they really lift me up. This week has probably been the hardest week I've had since losing Jackson. I have been more depressed then ever thought possible. I've come on this blog and vented enough though so i didn't want to get on here and be a downer for anybody else. I know some of my blog followers haven't had their babies yet, and they are scared to death. I don't want to freak them out anymore. This post is really just to let everyone know I don't think I'll be doing my blog any longer, besides the slide show and pictures I will be posting. I feel that Jackson's journey is over, and well as for Rob and I we have an extremely long rough road ahead of us, but we have to be ok. I don't want to depress people and I have no baby to update on now. I so very much wish that this blog wasn't ending and I had Jackson to update on, but the truth is I don't and it saddens me to get on her and write when i thought i would be writing about jackson Mac Beal forever on here. I love my baby boy and always will! He will always be in my heart, and I'll never forget the 10 most wonderful days of my life with my second born son baby jackson. He has touched so many people, and helped me understand how precious life really is. Jackson is my son, and unless you have lost a child nobody will ever understand the most awful pain that a person can mentally endure, but the pain is worth it just to have had Jackson for the 10 days that i did. I would go through my awful labor being care flighted, more labor, and then a c section again just to have those 10 days of my baby boy. I so wish it could have been forever but god had other plans. Thank you all for your support and kind words.
Candice Brooke

slide show and pics soon to come

I know i never posted that many pics of Jackson, but i think today I'm going to post some. I also have a slide show to put up......I MISS YOU JACKSON! MOMMY AND DADDY LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!