Happy birthday baby Jackson 7/29/10

Hello blog world! Haven't been on here in forever to blog, or even read other friends blogs. I hope and pray that all of you are doing great. Well tomorrow is jacksons first birthday, July 29th. Wow how I've been depressed this week. It feels like it really means he's gone. I won't ever see him, it's over. It's been a year so why am I feeling this now? It's like I'm really feeling the lose now more then ever. This week has not been good. Please pray for us tomorrow as we celebrate Jackson's 1st birthday without him. I miss my baby boy so very much, and wish god had had other plans for our family, like plans for us to still have our sweet Jackson! One of the best days of my life was the day I gave birth to Jackson Mac. The worst day of my life by far was the day he died in my arms. I believe the next worst day of my life will be tomorrow, on his first birthday, then his funeral would be next on this list. All horrible things to go thru. So happy happy happy birthday baby boy from your momma....mommy wishes she could hold you on this very special day. Hope God gives you a rockin party! Ps I'm blogging on my phone if this post looks funny......