Happy birthday baby Jackson 7/29/10

Hello blog world! Haven't been on here in forever to blog, or even read other friends blogs. I hope and pray that all of you are doing great. Well tomorrow is jacksons first birthday, July 29th. Wow how I've been depressed this week. It feels like it really means he's gone. I won't ever see him, it's over. It's been a year so why am I feeling this now? It's like I'm really feeling the lose now more then ever. This week has not been good. Please pray for us tomorrow as we celebrate Jackson's 1st birthday without him. I miss my baby boy so very much, and wish god had had other plans for our family, like plans for us to still have our sweet Jackson! One of the best days of my life was the day I gave birth to Jackson Mac. The worst day of my life by far was the day he died in my arms. I believe the next worst day of my life will be tomorrow, on his first birthday, then his funeral would be next on this list. All horrible things to go thru. So happy happy happy birthday baby boy from your momma....mommy wishes she could hold you on this very special day. Hope God gives you a rockin party! Ps I'm blogging on my phone if this post looks funny......

New blog

Here's my new blog for all of you to follow!

http://thecrazylifeofthebeals.blogspot.com/

Christmas pics

Here are some pictures of Ty this Christmas season....enjoy

CDH and my New Blog

Hello everybody,

I've decided to start a new blog. My new blog will be about our life today. Jackson of course will be talked about, because he is apart of our family, but I want this blog to be about CDH. I have a few things that I'm doing for the awareness of CDH, and alot of stuff i need to inform everybody of, and that's what this blog will be here for. I can't wait to start my new blog, and to fill you all in on our day to day life. I will post the name of my new blog as soon as i make it. Dnt forget about this one though, because I'm doing alot for the CDH world, with alot of help of course......Love you all!


Candice Brooke

Great Pics! Should I start a new blog?

Here's a few pics from this past month.....and i'm thinking about starting a new blog about our family. Think thats a good idea? Or should I just post on here??? I'm really not sure, but i love letting my feelings out, and talking about my sweet family.

Life today

I just thought i would finally post my slide show of Jackson. I hope everybody is doing great. I miss waiting for Jackson to get here, those were happy times, I thought everything would be fine. I loved doing my little blog. I know some of yall would love to know what we're doing now, as well as how we're doing. Well It's alot harder then i thought it would be to tell the truth. I mean the first week after Jackson was gone it was so terribly hard, but i was still in shock and didn't really realize that we would never see Jackson again. Now that it's sunk in and I'm in reality it's very difficult. I'm ok i suppose but still in need of lots of prayers. Today has been one of those really hard days and I can't seem to make myself see that it's going to be ok. I know this day will end and tomorrow will probably be better, but just because i have to make it better. Today was one of those days were i didn't want to hide my pain, or make it better, or even feel good. Sometimes you just have to have those days. I am not the same person that i was before and never will be, I hope to become a better person because of this. Rob is doing pretty good. He's still at the same job and we're still happy has ever. I tell him all the time that if i didn't have the happiness between us that i wouldn't have been able to make it through the loss of Jackson. I have truly found my soul mate. Thank you all for being a part of our life's. p.s. Ty is doing wonderful too!

Turn your sound on........Baby Jackson we love you

Make a Smilebox slideshow